Money on my mind

 

That $1.5 billion sounds good to me...and I bet sounds good to everyone right now too. 

When they say money can't buy happiness, they might be exaggerating a bit; it can buy happiness for a little while. It can make me happy when I want things and I can buy them without putting it aside for years (like lenses and cameras I am dying to try). 

I don't know what I would buy with all that money. Probably just a better place to live at and help my family. I don't think I would develop addictions, I just wouldn't have to worry about much except that my family is comfortable. 

I would, obviously, travel a bit more and invest a chunk load into my kids. 

My kids futures are what I would save that money for. 

I am a basic person when it comes to having money; my husband even jokes that I am the affordable wife and I could live off a cookie a day...and I can!

$1.5 billion dollars would not change me much except for the fact that I would sleep a bit more peacefully knowing we have money to survive for the rest of our lives.

Tired but not too tired to type...

I am currently sandwiched in between my two kids and hearing my husband snore so loud that I can't really hear the ocean sound off the white noise machine.

If you wonder when I do these posts, they are usually done after everyone passes out and before Edgar wakes up to have a midnight snack. I have an hour to finish this.

I don't like over thinking my posts; I want them to be very genuine and I want you to feel like I am talking to you, face to face. But since this is the first year I've taken on blogging almost every night, I'm tending to over think things.

I have no idea what interests readers...do they want to know everything that goes on in my life or should I leave a little bit to the imagination?

When I read things, I like humor in them and I like pretending I am there with a person, engaging in a conversation that keeps my mind occupied on what they are saying.

I don't know if I am doing that yet. I hope to do that in some way. I want to keep people interested even if it's just for a minute or two.

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I have trouble keeping people interested in my conversations in person, I really do. I am boring when it comes to conversations and lately I have become a stutterer. I think it's because I am beginning to speak more Spanish than English, and am confusing both languages and whatever comes out of my mouth comes out as Spanglish and that's not what I want. It's crazy how that works; I wasn't a stutterer until I started speaking Spanish more frequently.

ANYWAYS... I seriously have no idea why I rambled on about conversation and languages. That's another thing I have to work on and something that HAS followed me throughout all my grammar and highschool years; the ability to keep my focus on one thing and one thing only, and I obviously can not because I tend to change the subject of my post way too often.

Nothing probably makes sense to you at this point.

To close this post, I'll just post a little phrase my daughter told me today after she took her shower...

"Mami, tengo ambwe. quero come" "Mommy I am hungry, I want to eat"

I didn't really pay attention to her until after she said it for like, the fifth time.

Then I realized and imagined the poor, unfortunate kids who repeat this to their parents
every day and can't have their appetites full filled.

Crazy how when we see things like this, we know poverty is something of the norm to us and something that will never end, but when a child says things like this, things get put in a different perspective.

We don't like Sundays

 

My husband got me to hate Sundays. I used to like them because it meant another weekend day;  a little more time for FAMILY time. 

But then, more recently, it's just a reminder that work week starts the following day.

Even though I don't physically go to a workplace and labor a 9 to 5 job, this stay at home, house wife job is far more difficult than any other thing in the world.

You get no pay, and work crazy hours, sometimes even 24 hours taking breaks when you don't really want to or need to ( waiting at the doctors office, for example) , and waking up past midnight and tending to your kids needs.

Thats one of the reasons I dislike Sundays, because it means I am basically rushed all week when it comes to cooking.

I hate cooking, but I like to eat different foods sometimes so I force myself to learn some new recipes.

I feel like im in the kitchen all day, cooking and preparing meals. my kids eat at different times, are sometimes picky and make it a little more difficult for me to enjoy cooking.

You probably think I whine too much about what goes on in my life. I don't really talk to anyone about anything so I want to do it here. 

thanks for reading this tonight. 

you should come read my stuff every night. 

sometimes its pointless talk, and other days ill have interesting stuff to tell you.

 

I love Fridays and Saturdays though because that means we get to eat out. 

My resolution is about gaining, not losing

 

The title can be a little misleading; I am not talking about gaining weight (although I do need to gain at least 20lbs) but  more about managing my time wisely in both my social life with my family and business life.  I feel like they both go hand in hand. If I am confident around people, that confidence will show up while I am working with clients and taking portraits of them.

To be honest, many people have seen me struggle while we are in the session period of taking portraits of either themselves or their family members.

I admit it...sometimes my mind is not entirely in the 30 minute session; I am constantly thinking about my kids even when I know they are safe with either my husband or with my parents. 

I have struggled around people when they ask me ,

"How should I pose?" or "What do I do next?"... and sometimes I do know the correct answer I am supposed to give them but the majority of times I lack assertiveness in that area and I might even look like I don't know what I am doing, all because my mind wanders a lot or I may have an idea in mind, and try so hard to do it exactly how I pictured it.

I am working out camera kinks and trying to experiment with different camera settings and thinking about my children  all the while I am trying to create something memorable for a client and that is the area in which I am trying to change this year.

There is a time and place for everything and when it comes to a certain task, I want to try to focus on that task only and want the outcomes of family time and business time to be better than they were last year.

 

 

NEW everything this year

I am going to try to make it a habit to post at least twice a week on this blog; I made this blog for the very purpose of posting my photography and expressing my thoughts to those who care to know a little about what goes in my life (not much, to be honest). 

I feel like this is the best place for that because for one, my photos look better on here, than on any other social site, including facebook. Facebook likes to compress my photos and make them look the opposite of 'PIXEL PERFECT' . 

If you'd like to keep up with me there as well, I am under my personal Angeles Godinez
or under my business page Pixel Perfect Photography 

Today is January 8th, 2016 and Edgar turned 10 months old.

It's amazing how this past year (2015) went by so fast; I remember that when Galilea was around his age, I felt like I struggled a lot with her because she was my first born and It felt like forever just waiting for her to turn 1. 

That meant she would start talking, walking and expressing her personality a little bit more and now that she is turning 3 this month, I wish I could have held her even more than I did and cuddled with her and communicated with her much more. I wanted time to go by faster so I could see her do all those things, but now I see that baby years are only a few and the rest of her life is growing up faster than ever. 

With Edgar, I didn't take much notice the little things, like with what I did with Galilea as a baby; I remember reading monthly updates and wondering when her next milestone would hit. Edgars milestones were met and I didn't really seem surprised. Probably because I was also busy with Galilea and didn't really have time to gawk over his new accomplishments. 

He is now 10 months old and can crawl, clap, eat solids, knows a couple words (not speaking them, just pointing) he loves to listen to music and sometimes lets out a little dance. He loves  his sister and is fascinated with her; he can stare at her for minutes and just wonder. You can see the little glisten in his eyes.

I feel like I shouldn't make this so long; I will probably update and keep in touch with everyone a little more often this time around. 

I just wanted to updated the blog a little and mention that my youngest (and maybe last) baby is now 10 months old. 

This is Galilea helping me give Edgar a bath. She loves to push the ottoman up to the sink and step on top to help sponge her brothers back. This is a good tip for those who have an older sibling; get them to help and they will also get in on the fun without feeling left out.

 

 

Galilea 2016